Hungry For God

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Though I am poor, You say I am rich...
Though I am dirty, You say I am lovely.

Though I am dark and comely, You say I am beautiful...
Though I am worn and tattered, You would give anything for me.

There is something in my weakness that draws You to me.
How can it be that this is what has overwhelmed You and ravished Your heart?

Monday, September 03, 2007

I've recently deleted some posts...I'm just trying to be sensitive to others, and I worry that the posts may have been hurtful, or may have exposed some people in a way not honoring. My struggles are not always related solely to me, and maybe a blog is not the place to share your inmost struggles just in case some of you were wondering...especially when you are 8 months pregnant, you're doctor is a farmer (just kidding, I think she's actually pretty good), and you live in isolation :)

If you've read previous blogs, you may know that I am on a women's ministry core group for the AG church in Falls City...though we are not members there, we are still somewhat involved...or, I am, I guess. They had started a pretty neat ministry for young adults, more of a discussion than a sermon-type of meeting, and also more intimate...but it pretty much flopped over the summer, as a lot of things do. So...we've felt a little homeless as far as church goes. We've been wondering around town, going to different churches...still nothing different from the last time we wandered...

But, at our last meeting, the women's ministry asked me if I would lead a study on the book, "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldredge...I told them I would co-lead if someone would agree to help me since I'm having a baby in a few weeks and also it will be right in the midst of harvest, and my husband will be extremely busy at work. I have not had anyone volunteer, and those I've asked have declined. I've never led anything, really...and my ideas of how this would go are completely different from the norm...and women can sometimes be hard to work with as we often want to fix each other and know it all...I know this because I am one of those who want to fix everyone. I realized how hard this can be on another when someone was trying to fix me, and it really irritated me and sometimes hurt my feelings.

Blah...blah...blah...all this to say, if you think of me, please pray that my soul and pride would not take over and that it would obviously be God doing the work here...

Other than that...let's see...we went to the Omaha zoo today - the nicest zoo I've ever been to. If you're ever in the neighborhood, you should check it out! It's open year round :) The bathrooms are even clean, and there is one about every 30 yards!